May 30th, 2003 @ 11:42AM
Free your thoughts and you will free your mind.
I can be paid for the use of this mind of mine, paid to produce a product which will require the use of this brain's time. I can be tempted and swayed to play into someone else's ploy's and plot's, but once revealed it is my conscience choice to continue or stop.
The devil is in the details, he thrives in the fine print and hidden lines & bits of code. Little does one know when he comes and where he goes. This I do know, but the knowledge of this ill truth does not slow me. I will not let it show when I see him hiding in the shadows, trying to control me slowly, methodically. There are some truths to this life I live that exist, and knowing and identifying them is my own best assistance.
I know this, my mind is of my control. No one controls this soul in me but my own passions and drive for what I love and long for, control over my lusts is what keeps me in balance. The talents I contain are for use by my own discretion. I have been blessed with them because only I control when and when not to call upon them, and when to relinquish them upon others. I have discovered these truths and discovered many uses for my talents which are productive for me and others around me mutually.
One truth I know is that others will always be around to try and show you what you ought to be doing with these unique talents blessed upon you. They will try and trick you, they will try and persuade you to do their deeds which needs something which they can not conceive without outside assistance or talents which they do not possess internally. If they see these talents within you, you will simply become a tool to them which they will use to complete their own task at hand. Realization of when you are simply a tool to another is something which one must continually strive to discover. For once one is aware of what is there around him or her pulling and pushing for their own plan, one can decide what is best for one self and choose to be used in that manner by someone else or not. One plan or plot by another may or may not be beneficial to the one being tempted and persuaded to play along, but again the devil hides within the details and often can not be discovered, so the game of cat and mouse over the truth is never ending. There is no doubt that often people around us are pretending to be our friends for their own selfish intentions, we have all witnessed this again and again.
Shall we as an individual separate ourselves completely from those around us because we have witnessed this deceptive trickery? Isolation is the greatest tool that can be used to diminish our sanity, the very thing which we know we control distinctively. No one can tell me what I have to think, I can play along and show them I am down for their cause visually and externally, but internally I choose to think how I do and come to decisions on my own regardless of how I am forced to act to keep them from labeling me or reacting to the conclusions I have come to inside my own mind. This truth I always keep close to me.
Free your thoughts from getting caught in another mind's thoughtless selfish intentions and you will begin to gain self knowledge and self awareness, I confess this with no ill intrest to sell you something or persuade you to my point of view my friend.
April 12th, 2002 @ 10:25AM
I refuse to rest until musicians control the rights to the music they create!
February 5th, 2002 @ 3:39PM
movie88.com - what hollywood fears most, straight out of China.. lol
December 7th, 2001 @ 10:08AM
November 16th, 2001 @ 10:44PM
It pisses me off that I have to maintain two journals for DMusic and DevArt now.. I miss how it used to be.. I suggest u read my journal on
http://x.deviantart.com for a more up to date log on what's up with me.
Peace,
-X-
November 16th, 2001 @ 10:44PM
It pisses me off that I have to maintain two journals for DMusic and DevArt now.. I miss how it used to be.. I suggest u read my journal on
http://x.deviantart.com for a more up to date log on what's up with me.
Peace,
0X0
September 29th, 2001 @ 10:09PM
Perhaps it is time again to start these journalistic entries from my digital life, document some of the very things surrounding me to allow me to reflect upon them in the future again. This journal has documented my transitions and the turbulance surrounding them for most time of any "digital documentary" which I have made of these things around and surrounding this which I am. I have much love for the community which has known me through this community and responded positively to some of the creative things that working with DMusic and DevArt has allowed me to do. I will confess to all of you, I still do not know of a digital community with as much devotion and passion as I have seen and felt through this digital community. Life has pulled me from having time to commit to all of you who I used to communicate with almost daily through the news on these digital societies. This does not mean that the passions which turned me into the person kicking out the info to all of you previously are not as strong as ever before. With my new position at Cornell University, I have to give all of my attention and energy into bringing out the best I can with the time I have at hand to do it, and prove to everyone some of the things I know I am capable of. Things with Blues Traveler are also good, being a part of the "family" of such an amazing band is something which I thought I would never be able to fully understand before being in the position I am now. While we do not directly speak daily, as all of our lives require us to give attention to our tasks at hand, knowing there is a common respect and friendship which exists when life gives us a chance to meet up is something which builds my confidence that I am certainly on the right path. While trama of our days certainly has forever changed the future for everyone in the world, I know that I will go on thinking of how I can best live and share my joy and knowledge with everyone around me that wishes to recieve it and "feel me" when I do the things which make me who I am.
August 16th, 2001 @ 3:10PM
It's been a while since I updated this journal, but I am doing so to illustrate the positive things in store for the future of DMusic and XTunez.com. We are working on transitioning to a much brighter and better collective future, and the new ownership of DMusic is already showing it's positivity on the site. As I am sure many of you have noticed, the site is loading much more efficiently as we fix many of these problems which have plagued the site until recently. Have no fear, the true leaders of this community are not going anywhere. Dispite the litigation surrounding our community, we still strive daily to push towards the right goals for the future. Those goals are _not_ how to make the most money from this business, but rather how to do "the art of music" justice and represent her correctly. Trust in this, there will be more coming from this team as we pull together the right shit to flip the switch back into full pimpness.
-X-
February 9th, 2001 @ 10:54PM
The memories of these times will remain in my mind forever. I wish to stress to everyone in the community that I appriciate the love, sincerely. These days of chaos in the digital music revolution and death of our economy have been wild. I am glad that I was able to reach as many of you as I could with the information I profiled in the news, and through these very poems which track my life over these past few months. In you I have put my trust and do believe that deep down somehow I have helped to make a difference to this digital society in which we all live in. So now I start again, more educated and powerful then I would have ever been without the love of all of you. And for this, and this alone, my love shines back on all you truly for this community is my home. Time makes changes and we must move on.
Sincerely,
-X-
February 9th, 2001 @ 2:43PM
It is sad when all you have worked to achieve somehow seems to fall back on your face. Those who you thought were close now act like your in a race competing directly against them, burning anger which sends them into quick reactions. Retractions from thought out actions seem to not mend the damage already done, and once begun the end effect has come to a conclusion, illusions of the relationship before the mistake was made on both parts still exists.. The smoldering from the fire of competitive thoughts emits clearly, blurring the line of site through the misunderstanding. A resolution is nearing..
